Never have I walked into a classroom and demanded changes in order to do my job. I would look at the layout and resources available, and adopted. Never have I refused to learn the technology available to do my job
if you think about it, any president who already has experience in the office is not allowed to hold the position. Every time we put in a new president so far, the new president has been an amateur with no experience as president.
Sitting on the subway, if you are not looking otherwise engaged, and God forbid you actually make eye contact, then you would have the joy of a traveling companion spouting insane theories. So, people would bury their noses in books instead, so they could avoid eye contact and conversations, and now the insane theories are relegated to hyper-conservative “news” “personalities”.
Back then, though, systems such as this came with sophisticated owner’s manuals complete with electronic schematics and detailed debugging information. The circuit boards were built with “test points”, little metal protrusions designed to be able to put the leads of a multimeter to them and measure either voltage or resistance at that point. They were somehow labeled, and the manual listed sets of these test points and what the measurement should read. If it was off, you could tell where the problem was
I’ve learned how to learn. When it failed, I figured out that it must be a problem with the motherboard, which it is. Even without taking computer diagnostics, I figured this out because of my critical thinking and problem solving skills that I had learned in my undergraduate and graduate studies.
These are dangerous times. They say that those who don’t know history are bound to repeat it, and we’re in a dangerous time that this may again happen.
The chaos builds slowly enough that it’s easy to think, “oh, I’ll pick it up tomorrow”. Eventually you hit an inflection point where it goes from that to, “ugh, this’ll take hours”. And it did. Days in fact. But once there’s a crack in the depression veil, it helps to take advantage of it and hit it like a storm. I still have more to do, but I’m feeling better already now that there is at least an end in sight.
It’s not uncommon for disreputable research advisers to try underhanded techniques like this. It’s unfortunate that the people actually doing the work don’t get credit when this happens and, in this case, the research is lost altogether because of published lies from within the same research group.
A friend of mine had been repeatedly raped, in reality, by her father as a child. When she tried therapy, it brought repressed memories to the surface and made her worse. I’m told the ratio is roughly one to one to one. For everybody, like me, that therapy helps, there is somebody who gets worse, and there is another who gets little or nothing out of it. But it’s definitely worth giving therapy a try. If you have the courage and strength.
This will be a very difficult post for me to write, and some people will scoff or even laugh at it but being true to my goal of wanting to speak my truth in case other are going through something similar, hopefully they will know that they are not alone.