the true heartbreak isn’t her. While I was pining for her, the woman I should have been with found another boy to whom to give her affection.
I wish she and I were closer so I could ask her this question, if she feels like she’s leaving home, or heading towards home.
Had I taken this opportunity, had I had the self-fortitude to attend, I would have had the opportunity to experience a live and personal event that few people will ever know.
we have no control over how it is received. All we can control is our own effort, that we put into it. And that should be our focus.
Taoists speak of “Yin and Yang”, the two opposing forces through which all movement is possible. The Yin of pushing against the ground with the foot in each stride, and the Yang of the surrender of space for our body to move forward.
In case you haven’t noticed, I’m feeling particularly lonely and introspective. This probably isn’t a good thing, but neither is it a surprise. I’m a thinker with deep emotions.
To me, it’s reading like “sour grapes”, just an old man complaining about his lost youth. I guess I can’t say this isn’t the case, but I seem to have reached an age where I have difficulty reconciling what I have accomplished in the past and what I want to and can still accomplish today, with the difficulty of finding the opportunity to do so.