it’s not my relationship with my father that makes me melancholy, but rather, the lack of relationship.
There are a few women that I have known through the years in whose arms I’ve felt more at home than anywhere else I’d ever been.
The alcohol was whispering lies into her ear, far louder than my voice as I pleaded with her to stop. She began buying wine by the cases and drinking the vast majority of entire bottles of vodka in a sitting. The alcohol told her that she’s strong enough to control her drinking and control the alcohol. Then it congratulated her on her strength in only drinking when she wanted because, clearly, she could stop at any time.
Did I show love for her by accepting that answer so as to protect her relationship with him? Or did he show love for her by not allowing her to have a male friend? Or was she showing love for him by being honest and asking rather than just having that lunch with me?
We’re excited by the new and run to chase the advances down in our lives, often at the expense of the present. There’s something to be gained by stopping and examining where we are at, paying attention to the details of our current situation before rushing into the next.
Spend time with your loved ones. Sit and listen to the elderly in your family. Ask them about their past, and what they can teach you.
On my social media page, I wrote, “Today is apparently daughters’ day, which has me thinking about my daughters, never born, always wanted. I wish I could have known you.”
We can laugh at moths for such a folly, but I’m not so convinced that humans are much better.
The purpose of these posts, as stated previously, is to help people going through similar feelings to know that they’re not alone. But to be fair, there’s also something cathartic in writing them.
some people sadly have lived through so much tragedy and so many bad things that when things are going well, they become stressed because, clearly, something will go wrong eventually. They live in fear of the good time ending, and sometimes will self-sabotage relationships so they can hurt their partner before their partner can hurt them.