we have no control over how it is received. All we can control is our own effort, that we put into it. And that should be our focus.
Taoists speak of “Yin and Yang”, the two opposing forces through which all movement is possible. The Yin of pushing against the ground with the foot in each stride, and the Yang of the surrender of space for our body to move forward.
In case you haven’t noticed, I’m feeling particularly lonely and introspective. This probably isn’t a good thing, but neither is it a surprise. I’m a thinker with deep emotions.
To me, it’s reading like “sour grapes”, just an old man complaining about his lost youth. I guess I can’t say this isn’t the case, but I seem to have reached an age where I have difficulty reconciling what I have accomplished in the past and what I want to and can still accomplish today, with the difficulty of finding the opportunity to do so.
I suppose that makes me a proverbial “sap”. I guess there’s no real harm in wishing karmic kickback to those who deserve it (provided that we don’t actively do anything to cause it), but it’s just not who I am.
The psychologists tell me that it’s a problem with my serotonin. I’ve been prescribed serotonin re uptake blockers, basically keeping higher levels of serotonin in the intracellular fluids between my nerve cells. If it’s not taken back up, this “happiness” hormone is more likely to find its cell site to bind to make me feel happier.
All too often, I’ve heard sentences that begin with something along the lines of “you’re only alone because…”
In a strong wind, the concrete in a bridge will crack and need repairs far more often than the flexible metal framework holding it up.
Despite my desire to do otherwise, I clearly caused her and her family great pain. It’s a burden I’ve lived with ever since.
focusing on the positive is a good thing, but for me, it's never been enough. I'm not okay because I have these things; I'm actually okay because I choose to be okay.