Home 11/10/22

There are a few women that I have known through the years in whose arms I’ve felt more at home than anywhere else I’d ever been.

Daughter Day 9/26/22

On my social media page, I wrote, “Today is apparently daughters’ day, which has me thinking about my daughters, never born, always wanted. I wish I could have known you.”

Rejected Again 9/16/22

The purpose of these posts, as stated previously, is to help people going through similar feelings to know that they’re not alone. But to be fair, there’s also something cathartic in writing them.

The Bleil Curse 9/5/22

Living alone, he finally decided he had had enough. He didn’t commit suicide, per se, but he used his legendary stubbornness to just die.

A Loveless World 8/24/22

I was watching another damned romantic “comedy”, and they often have the effect of making me feel my loneliness far too deeply. As per usual, when I feel like this, I like to write about it if for no other reason than so other people who might be feeling the same know that they are not alone.

Another Failure 6/21/22

Tonight, I won’t be in bed alone. It’ll be overcrowded with demons from my failure as a dean, from my failure as the director of a forensic lab, and even as a failure as an adjunct professor.

Friendless 5/31/22

In my deepest funk, in my loneliest hours, I know you all are with me in spirit, and never have I lost you in my heart. I know you literally saved my life, and I know we can pick it back up at any time.

Tusks 5/2/22

Leave it to humans to covet the defensive mechanism of animals, such as the tusk of elephants, the blubber of whales or the shells of great sea turtles. Learning to hunt and kill from a distance, we’ve hunted all three animals nearly to extinction

Bitter Truth 1/1/22

I would love to be open, to have a wife or even a partner, but I don’t know how I would be able to handle being with somebody who actually loves and cares about me.

Holidays 11/30/21

If I had a family, it would be a very different affair altogether. (It would be a very different affair. Sorry, paraphrasing a movie joke there.) For example, I think I would leave the tree down until after Thanksgiving dinner. I could see that as a fun family activity (replacing the early Black Friday nonsense). After a bit of time to let the dinner settle, put up the tree and begin decorating it as a family as a tradition and way for the family to interact.